I have been doing well during the separation for the most part. I have had to deal with a lot of fear–fear that she will want to extend the separation and eventually divorce. It is very hard to accept responsibility for being the cause of this mess. I am coming to a new place in my thinking. I have to accept that she may not want to continue this relationship but I am letting go of this fear. I think it would be sinful on her part to end it. I have faith in her that she does not want to do this. She might rationalize that I caused it, it was my fault, and that I was unfaithful by using porn. I would disagree with that and could walk away with my head held high. I have done everything I can to change. I can be forgiven by God and be clean. I can lean on God and he can carry me through this.