Do you have a favorite fantasy? Do you know what my fantasy is? No, nothing about the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders. I fantasize about having a wife who is into me. Not some drone who worships at my feet, not at all. I just want a wife who desires me and needs me. I want a wife who is willing to do the things that I am willing to do for her. Someone who is affectionate and openly shows that she loves me. I want a wife who wants to spend time together doing things and is willing to find common interests. A wife who is open sexually and spends time to learn a little bit. It has to be poisonous to think this way. I know I should be thankful for what I have. I should be thankful she has been faithful, loyal, a good mother, a good caretaker of the home, a hard worker at her job. So here I am, finding myself estatic when I get touched at all. My biggest fear is I will fix all the things that have made it difficult for her to love me and nothing will change. I guess I can’t expect to change direction after travelling in the same rut for 20 years.